Yesterday morning I was participating in a Sacred Cacao Ceremony facilitated by the fabulous Candace Blair of soulfiresocial.com. If you are not familiar with Candace check her out. She is a Kundalini yoga teacher, sounder healer, incredible alchemist. The Sacred Cacao Goddess came to me and shared the following message. It was such a poignant message for me for, as you all know, I live with several disease processes that are currently playing out in my energetic field. Often there is self-blame and shame that comes with illness in the physical body. I work REALLY hard at self care and healing and yet I still find myself beating myself up for being where I am. I recently was awaiting the results of four biopsies. That process threw me into such a state of fear. I had to face every fear I thought I had already faced around dying, living with even more disease and losing even more of my quality of life. Thankfully all of the biopsies were negative. This message from our Mother after this very intense period in my life was much like a rainstorm in a barren desert. For me, it takes away the shame and the blame and the self-recrimination. It empowers me to take responsibility for my life in a way that is life affirming and kind. If I’ve learned anything through my journey with Sclereoderma, PAH, it is to be kind to my self. May Her message find it’s way into your heart and free you to forgive yourself, to truly love yourself and your process and to KNOW that whatever is happening in your body is LIFE (Love In Full Expression). That we, just as all of nature does, moves towards the light. We may have to have our times in the darkness of Her Womb but there will always be a birth.
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The light of my life/our life turns 40 today. This man was not supposed to live through his first night. His APGAR score was 2/4. Babies with an APGAR score of 2/4 rarely survive. And yet here he is 40 years later. He is my miracle baby. The one that made it through. He is also my rainbow baby, born 3 years after I miscarried at 5 months. Born in the land of rainbows in Honolulu, Hawaii, he broke my heart wide open with his birth and he has continued to take my breath away with his presence. He is our Rainbow Warrior.
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Good morning Team.Divine MotherDivine FatherDivine BrotherDivine Sisterall of you be with me today as I go forth in my day.May I be a beacon of love and light and compassion.May I walk gently on the earth.Thank you for being present for me always.Thank you for loving me, guiding me, helping me, being aware of me, acknowledging me, nourishing me, supporting me, listening to me.I am here.It is a new day.An opportunity to start fresh.I am here ready, willing and able to be.To be what is neededWhat is required in each moment.I am here to be of serviceto the Divine callthat is as a clarionto my soul, to my human.I am here, Dear Goddess, Mother of all Creation,I am here to be a vesselfor thy bidding.I am here. I am hereI am here filled withgratitude, love, andeven remorse for notalways being awareof the need to be here.I am hereon this planet, EarthI am here. Be here now.I am hereresponding to the callof the Mother.I am here tending to her children.I am here. I am here. I am here.I am love incarnate.I am the eyes, ears, mouth, voice, heartof Creation, The Creator,The Mother, the Father,The Universal Cosmos of Creation.I am that which is.I choose to look at this momentand be grateful for that.I am here in my healing room.The silence is deafening.The aloneness sublime.The opportunity to be alonein my own beingwith my Creator,a gift not to be taken for granted.I am here. I am here.And in this momentI rejoice in this moment of here.For this momentI can lay aside the pain, the fear,the anxiety of living with an incurable disease.For this momentI can bear witnessto the suffering of those around me.For this momentI can rejoice in the silence.I can rejoice in the factthat my body is mostly pain-free.In this momentI am doing more than just enduring.In this momentI am rejoicing in living.I am rejoicing thatI AM THE BODY.I AM THE BODYMY SOUL USES TO EXPRESS ITSELF.I AM THE BODYTHAT EXPRESSES LOVEWITH A HUG,WITH TOUCH,WITH A KIND WORD.I AM THE BODYTHAT EXPRESSES LOVEBY LISTENINGTO THE PAIN OF OTHERS.I AM THE BODYMY SOUL USESTO ACT IN KINDAND BENEVOLENT WAYS.I AM THE BODYMY SOUL USESTO POINT OUTABUSE, INJUSTICE.I AM THE BODYAND TODAYI AM GRATEFULfor that and for this bodythat carries my pain,Carries the pain of those I love,carries the pain of the massesBut also carriesthe love that heals that pain.I am the heartbreakI am the love that soothesI am the abuserI am the abusedI am the antidote to bothI am the love that healsI am the love that nourishesI am the love that supportsI am the love that is awareI am the love that is all encompassingI am the love.I am here
About the Art: I created this Rock Goddess when we were redoing our son, Cory's, backyard. We created a rock garden that included a medicine wheel and yin yang symbol as well as other spiritual symbols. It was hard work but a fun family project. Her head is made from a gourd and unfortunately the New Mexico sun has not been kind to her. She is however, still standing eight years later. Kind of like me, a little bruised and battered but still here.