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Sunday, September 26, 2021

Cory



 The light of my life/our life turns 40 today. This man was not supposed to live through his first night. His APGAR score was 2/4. Babies with an APGAR score of 2/4 rarely survive. And yet here he is 40 years later. He is my miracle baby. The one that made it through. He is also my rainbow baby, born 3 years after I miscarried at 5 months. Born in the land of rainbows in Honolulu, Hawaii, he broke my heart wide open with his birth and he has continued to take my breath away with his presence. He is our Rainbow Warrior.


He has faced more challenges in his 40 years than most of us face in a lifetime. And he has done it with grace, humor and passion. From his very first breath life has been a challenge for him and yet he has never played the role of victim. I have never heard him say why me? At ten years of age with a smile and a wave, he wheeled himself into the operating room and hopped up on the operating table. That’s who he is at his core. Fearless. That is not to say he is without fear. Yet time after time especially as a child he faced those fears over and over again with dignity beyond his years. He is wise. He is kind. He can be stubborn. I am proud of the man he has become. He has not let Life wear him down.

Raymond and I are planners. We never planned that Cory would still be with us 40 years later. Every surgery, every infection, every fever we were sure he was headed Home. He knew long before we did that not only was he surviving, he was thriving! Cory has been the impetus for growth in our family. It is his arrival that put me squarely on the spiritual path that most likely saved my life and for sure gave my life meaning and purpose. He continues to challenge me in the best way to be all I came here to be. He continues to rise to the occasion and in doing so teaches me to do the same.

Happy Birthday, Buddha.

Sunday, September 12, 2021

Thank you for this day


May I greet it with the

Eyes, ears, mouth and heart of a child
May I experience the wonder
Of Being
In this magnificent
Physical body

May I experience the world
May I experience the people
And circumstances of the world
Through the eyes of my innocence

I dig deep to find
That place
That place of safety and trust
I dig deep to remember
The innocence
That was once mine
Or perhaps it just floats
To the surface
As I allow myself
To wonder and wander

I AM Holy
I AM Blessed
I AM made in the image
Of the Divine
That means that
I AM perfect
Just as I AM

And that means
That YOU are made in the image
Of the Divine
And YOU are perfect
Just as you are
Right here
Right now
In this moment
Of Holy Bliss
In this moment
Of remembrance

Stay here for a moment
Before you immerse yourself
In the activities of daily living
Stay here and savor
The beauty of this moment
This breath
This smell
This experience

Throughout the day
Go back to this moment
Of holiness before the
Sun is up
While the world sleeps
Revel in the quiet
Bathe in the peace
Of this Holy moment of now

Use this moment of now
To inform
How you move
Through your day

Use this moment of now
To inform how you touch
To inform how you speak
To those you encounter
On your journey on
This blessed day
In this moment
Of blissful recognition
Of the
One True Source

Namaste
The Divine in me
Sees and honors
The Divine in you
May we meet
In this moment
Of remembrance
Today and everyday

And so it is.

Sunday, August 29, 2021

I AM


I AM loved

I AM
 
I AM bathed in Love. I AM


I am based in Love. I AM
 
I AM That Which Is.
I AM
I AM She/He/They
That comes to you in the Silence.
I AM
I AM She/He/They
That comes to you amidst the chaos/noise
I AM
 
I AM She/He/They
Inside you
I AM
 
I AM She/He/They
All around you
I AM
 
I AM in every nook and cranny
I AM
I AM everything and no(thing)
I AM
 
As a child
You were told
God is everywhere
Your Catholic catechism asked
Where is God?
God is everywhere
God is in ALL things
I AM
 
I AM God
I AM The Goddess
I AM The Light
I AM The Dark
I AM The Grey
I AM The In-between
I AM
I AM form
I AM formless
I AM
 
There is no place
In which I AM not
I AM here
I AM there
I AM
I AM here and there
All at once
I AM
 
I AM
I AM
I AM
I AM
 
Raven Maestas-Valencia 💛🦋
8/29/2021
 
About the art: I had not created any art in a very long time. I went to California to visit my dear friend and Soulsister, Rosemary Valdez Fletcher. She was determined that she was going to get me creating again. She used simple childlike tools to entice me such as Crayola‘s magic clay and poster paints. And this Angel Goddess as born. She now resides with another dear friend and Soulsister, Valerie Kwietniak.
 
 

Monday, August 23, 2021

I AM HERE



Rock Goddess

           I AM HERE 

Good morning Team.
Divine Mother
Divine Father
Divine Brother
Divine Sister
all of you be with me today as I go forth in my day.
May I be a beacon of love and light and compassion.
May I walk gently on the earth.
Thank you for being present for me always.
Thank you for loving me, guiding me, helping me, being aware of me, acknowledging me, nourishing me, supporting me, listening to me.
 
I am here.
It is a new day.
An opportunity to start fresh.
I am here ready, willing and able to be.
To be what is needed
What is required in each moment.
 
I am here to be of service
to the Divine call
that is as a clarion
to my soul, to my human.
 
I am here, Dear Goddess, Mother of all Creation,
I am here to be a vessel
for thy bidding.
 
I am here. I am here
I am here filled with
gratitude, love, and
even remorse for not
always being aware
of the need to be here.
 
I am here
on this planet, Earth
I am here. Be here now.
 
I am here
responding to the call
of the Mother.
I am here tending to her children.
I am here. I am here. I am here.
 
I am love incarnate.
I am the eyes, ears, mouth, voice, heart
of Creation, The Creator,
The Mother, the Father,
The Universal Cosmos of Creation.
I am that which is.
 
I choose to look at this moment
and be grateful for that.
I am here in my healing room.
The silence is deafening.
The aloneness sublime.
The opportunity to be alone
in my own being
with my Creator,
a gift not to be taken for granted.
 
I am here. I am here.
And in this moment
I rejoice in this moment of here.
 
For this moment
I can lay aside the pain, the fear,
the anxiety of living with an incurable disease.
 
For this moment
I can bear witness
to the suffering of those around me.
 
For this moment
I can rejoice in the silence.
I can rejoice in the fact
that my body is mostly pain-free.
 
In this moment
I am doing more than just enduring.
In this moment
I am rejoicing in living.
 
I am rejoicing that
I AM THE BODY.
I AM THE BODY
MY SOUL USES TO EXPRESS ITSELF.
I AM THE BODY
THAT EXPRESSES LOVE
WITH A HUG,
WITH TOUCH,
WITH A KIND WORD.
 
I AM THE BODY
THAT EXPRESSES LOVE
BY LISTENING
TO THE PAIN OF OTHERS.
 
I AM THE BODY
MY SOUL USES
TO ACT IN KIND
AND BENEVOLENT WAYS.
 
I AM THE BODY
MY SOUL USES
TO POINT OUT
ABUSE, INJUSTICE.
 
I AM THE BODY
AND TODAY
I AM GRATEFUL
for that and for this body
that carries my pain,
Carries the pain of those I love,
carries the pain of the masses
But also carries
the love that heals that pain.
 
I am the heartbreak
I am the love that soothes
I am the abuser
I am the abused
I am the antidote to both
I am the love that heals
I am the love that nourishes
I am the love that supports
I am the love that is aware
I am the love that is all encompassing
I am the love.
I am here

About the Art:  I created this Rock Goddess when we were redoing our son, Cory's, backyard.  We created a rock garden that included a medicine wheel and yin yang symbol as well as other spiritual symbols. It was hard work but a fun family project. Her head is made from a gourd and unfortunately the New Mexico sun has not been kind to her. She is however, still standing eight years later. Kind of like me, a little bruised and battered but still here.